"Someone once told me you have to choose...
what you win or lose..." - Leona Lewis

Senior year. Wow. I never thought the time would come that fast. I'd like to sit back, chill and enjoy the remaining time I have in college..but I feel like I need to face reality. Time to look ahead...figure things out....make decisions. Its quite a scary time actually. =[ Eh...can't be so unenthusiastic about it. Gotta look at the brighter side of things. Gotta enjoy it for the time being. =]

My family has been quite supportive about me going to optometry school (in the asian kind of way). They know its what I want to do, but this is all so new to them. Another 4 years in grad school....another 4 years of paying tuition. I told them I applied out of school (as well as in state of course) and they thought I was crazy. I'm scared, but I really want to do this. I never got the chance to study abroad (I told myself  I would in college) so going out to grad school out of state can make up for it. Then I told them I would need to fly to the school for the interview...they thought it was insane! They thought it was the stupidest thing to buy a plane ticket there for an interview and risk the chance of not being accepted. It was hard for them to understand. I practically had to convince them and to prove it to them that is how graduate schools are like. Baby steps...baby steps.

"Friendships multiply joys and divide griefs" -Thomas Fuller

Tony asked me the other day who my best friend is. I was silent...stuttered a little...I couldn't give him a name. He looked at me blankly, as if it was impossible to not have a best friend. I then tried to explain that no one comes to mind when I think of "best friend." I don't feel any one person in particular knows me THAT well. There isn't any one person I can go to for all my problems. There are specific people that I go to for specific problems, but not one person that can understand me well enough in all aspects. Then there are those times when I share happiness with certain people doing specific activities (ie traveling, shopping, movies, cooking, etc). If I could combine all the qualities and personalities of all my friends, then I can create that best friend. But I don't want to. I like each and everyone's uniqueness. It makes them who they are. Its what makes them special.

Then I realized that maybe I have really high standards for a best friend. Sure, I have close friends, but not a single best friend. Is it a good thing to have high standards? Is it my fault that I like to pick and choose who I tell what to? I don't know....All I know is that I've managed to be best friend-less for the past 6 years.

Regardless of what title friends have, friends are important. Without them, I'd be a mess. I really do mean it when I say thanks for being such awesome people. It takes some time and effort to build that friendship. I'm glad I wasted my time on you guys. haha! You guys rock my sockkkssss! =]

"You can ask me for anything you like, except time." -- Napoleon

Time goes and never comes back. As much as I sometimes wish for more hours in a day, I know it's quite impossible. There's so many things I want to do before there's no time for it. Hopefully that's possible.